Life is good.  How many of us can say that with a true and open heart?  i know I have not been able to say that for some time, in truth.  I feel it now.

Not to say that I haven't been confused, not to say that I have not been lonely at times, not to say that I haven't been sad, but only to say that every day I wake up and cherish the day - and what it brings.  i am always finding something within my day that makes me smile, and appreciate the world around me, and those within it.

I am learning much at the moment, many things I thought I knew, I am re-learning.  Many things I never knew, I am learning.  I am learning who I am, what I am - I am learning so much more than I anticipated.  A unique experience, but not unexpected at this point.

I am healing, always growing and always healing.   that which has caused deep scars is gently being released, and cleansed and while the scars remain to remind me - they are healing.  I carry those scars within me with pride, because I survived.

I am healing, I am growing.  How many have given up after going through what I have been through in my life?  How many have crossed themselves over because they went through the very same things?  I walked in darkness for a time - in its own way it is alluring and still calls to me at times, but I came back.  I chose to grow, to learn, to heal, to move forward - to embrace the gifts the God and Goddess have given me, to embrace the God and Goddess within me. 

My guides were (and still are) patient and loving, and helped me to decide to return and move forward.  They guide me still, giving me strength when I feel week, providing comfort and love when i am lonely, allow me the safe, sacred place to cry when I need it.

The world is open to me now, many paths ahead for me to choose from.  I wait for Guidance from the God and Goddess, and will go as they ask, for we all have the choice to listen or not.  I choose to listen.

Where will that take me?  What adventures await me?  What love awaits me?

I do not know, and so I continue to work on my patience, all will happen as They will it, and not a moment sooner.  I am ready, I am waiting and while waiting I am working on my inner self, my outer self, and I am working on accepting the fact that i AM worthy of love in my life, true love - honest love - passionate love and I am working on giving that love to myself.  Many years I denied that within me, No more.  many years I was forced to suppress who and what I truly was to survive, to literally live.  No longer.

I live without fear for the first time in my entire life.  As a child I lived with fear, as a teen i lived with fear, as a maiden i lived with fear...as a mother i lived with fear.  Daily.  Now, as mother, woman, Priestess, I do not live in fear.  I live in strength, in power, in peace, in joy and in love. 

Its not easy sometimes, but it is what i strive for on a daily basis, to live in love.  Somedays it comes easy, and some days it is hard work.

I carry on....I wait....I work on ME and I let God and Goddess guide me as they will.  I listen, and I move forward.

May the God and Goddess Bless you and your Loved Ones on this Ostara.  May your dreams, wishes and desires bloom with the spring flower and grow to fruition to be more than you ever expected.