Quote: To live is to grow. How will you grow? Straight and true, or twisted and broken? I choose to live straight and true.
Location: Sterling, CO
What is Your Path?
Kitchen / Hedge Witch
About Me
I am a divorced mother of two teen boys. I am healing in many aspects of myself and my life, and while it is hard work, it is so worth the work.
Music
I listen to all types of music, I particularly enjoy Native American drumming and flute music, but also listen to rock, country, and some alternative.
Movies
I love horror movies, sci-fi, thrillers, and of course "chick" flicks LOL
TV
I like the reality shows, the cop shows, the paranormal shows, when i have time to sit and watch TV, which isn't often any more.
Books
I read about 3 books a week or more. The only kind of books I DON'T read are the "bodice rippers"
A shamanic pagan's roots are generally found in Native American faith. A true love and respect for the earth and all that it yields is central to their faith. Wisdom is most often found in spirit guides or totems, who can be animals, ancestors, or spirits. Pagans who follow this path tend to be far more aware of the delicate web that interweaves the lives of every person and thus move within that web accordingly. They're usually deeply insightful, friendly, loving people and excellent friends and parents. Mysterious and strong, as well, they are often the protectors of their friends and family as well as the moral compass for their friends and loved ones.
Do you ever wake up some mornings, and feel like a cloud of darkness have enveloped you and you can see nothing but darkness, anger, frustration?
I woke up that way this morning. I know when that happens to me, I have to distance myself from people in general, and my friends in particular otherwise it can get ugly. I will say things I truly don't mean, I will look at them with anger, I will only come from a place of anger.
So i cancelled the plans to go to the lake today with a pagan friend of mine, and have answered a few emails (easy enough to re-read and erase what i may have typed that was not needed as opposed to talking when the words come out and you can not retract them once said) and decided to blog about it.
Surely everyone has these days? Surely i'm not the only one?
Being a strong Empath, when this happens i have to sit a minute and see if these are MY feelings, MY frustration and anger - or am I getting them from someone else? I am always strongly connection to my family (my blood family as well as those I have chosen for my family) so I run through the list o see if I am getting it from them (and sometimes i am) or if it is from me. I know that the darkest part of me is still angry, still frustrated, still hurt - so sometimes it IS me. If it's someone else, I will block that "incoming" and it usually works. Then I will contact them to see what is going on. It's always a relief to find it's coming from a loved one that i have a tie with and not me.
Because if it's coming from me - that's scary. That I still harbor those dark feelings within me? ARGH....some days it seems to never go away.
So, I sleep. In sleep i have peace - if only for a while. Peace from other's emotions, peace from my own emotions --in sleep i can reconstruct what my reality is, and make it nicer, prettier, more....just MORE than it is at the moment. In sleep I can create what i want.
All I crave is peace. Some days i have it, some days i have to work for it, and some days it is slippery and elusive.
I am guessing that is the way of the world though.
I've been thinking..... I know, I know it's dangerous when that happens. Can't you see the steam coming out of my ears? Didn't you notice the big thunderstorms daily in my neck of the woods? Ha ha - THATS what happens when I think.
Well I've been thinking, Soul Mates - truth or fantasy? There are so many differing ideas regarding soul mates - do you think that they are a true mate to you? do you think that they are the other half of your soul and you can only be complete with them? and if so, why can't you be complete by yourself? Some even say that Soul Mates are more like a sibling relationship?
What do you think?
If you find that one person that just fills you with love, fills you with peace, contentment, makes you feel cherished, loved, accepted, honored, wanted, needed - and you feel a hole left when they are not near you --- is that just a really really good relationship or is it a soul mate?
What do you think the difference between a soul mate and a Life Mate are?
Just some ideas running through my mind. Tell me your thoughts?
How true is this for me at this moment? An interesting idea to ponder, as I have been avoiding the pondering aspect of quite a few things as of late.
You are The Tower
Ambition, fighting, war, courage. Destruction, danger, fall, ruin.
The Tower represents war, destruction, but also spiritual renewal. Plans are disrupted. Your views and ideas will change as a result.
The Tower is a card about war, a war between the structures of lies and the lightning flash of truth. The Tower stands for "false concepts and institutions that we take for real." You have been shaken up; blinded by a shocking revelation. It sometimes takes that to see a truth that one refuses to see. Or to bring down beliefs that are so well constructed. What's most important to remember is that the tearing down of this structure, however painful, makes room for something new to be built.
Send Message
Add Friend
Block User
